As long as yall know wtf the truth is….carry on…thats wussup.
I cannot lie to myself. I dont want to lie to myself.
I am uncertain. I dont know what I truly want.
I want what feels good.
I am bitter. Still.
trust? What is that?
Im still hurting from my past. My past that lingers in my present.
My mind gets so ugly. My mind tortures me.
Everything, everyday, so overwhelming.
Over thinking, second guessing, over analyzing.
I just want safety and simplicity. Happiness really. But where does one really find this?
What is this void that I have? How do I fill it? What am I missing?
Oh god just reverse my tainted head and heart. Someone show me and tell me everything is gonna be alright.
The thought of tomorrow and the years to come fill me with anxiety and panic and fulfillment seems out of sight.